One of my biggest fears is that I will become a hypochondriac; don't worry about the logic behind a fear of becoming overly fearful. More accurately, I'm afraid people will view me as a hypochondriac. On Monday I was at work when I realized I had started spotting. Of course my first concern was about the baby and then I was concerned about what the clinic would think about me if I called in and asked them if this was normal. I also don't like people knowing that sometimes I just don't know things. I was pretty sure I shouldn't be concerned but of course I was still scared because this is my first time and I really don't know anything. I clocked out of work and went outside to call the clinic (because I'm sure my coworkers did not want to hear about the blood on my underwear...odd) and the secretary told me the nurse would call me right back. And then I waited for 40 minutes, which was great. I haven't bled at all my entire pregnancy, not even really any implantation spotting. The nurse told me it was probably fine but I could go in to check the baby if I wanted. Since she wasn't concerned I convinced myself that I wasn't either, and decided to wait until my appt on Wednesday. And then I called Felipe but he was teaching a class and couldn't answer. I was a little glad he didn't answer because I'm sure I would have burst into tears. Sometimes being scared is hard. And then I went back to work and acted normal and pretended I wasn't secretly going to the bathroom every five minutes to check my pants. Oh son, why do you have to worry me already? This really was not a big deal and I have been so blessed in this pregnancy to be really healthy. And I think this was really hardest for Felipe because he was teaching a class and trying to surreptitiously text me at the same time and just so worried. I was sorry to have worried him but it was so sweet to see his concern.
I did have my regularly scheduled appointment with a midwife yesterday (which was not a great visit, but for other reasons) and the baby's heartbeat was great. And no spotting since. Hopefully that was a one time fluke. I also secretly think that the clinic didn't believe me when I told them we hadn't had sex in the last few days. That was the first question both the nurse on Monday and then the midwife on Wednesday asked me and when I answered no they both paused a minute and then said something along the lines of "well, it's really common to have a little bleeding after intercourse, so I wouldn't be concerned". It is just so great not to be believed. But baby is fine and that's what's important. Let's keep the scary things in the past!
Oh my gosh, yes! I had spotting for 3 days at about 6 weeks. The first morning I woke up and just started bawling, called Doug in a panic, called in sick to work, called the doctor who assured me it was "normal" unless I have cramping or it gets heavy. I still freaked out everytime I went to the bathroom until it stopped. Looking back, I think it must have been my 6 week ultrasound that caused it. I don't care if it's "normal" or "happens to a lot of women" it's still scary and hard to deal with.
ReplyDeleteWhoa whoa now hold up. Probably I just read your blog post about your first IUI. I think I need to be caught up. But that sounds terrifying!! So much worse than my experience. I would probably just stop functioning ha. Especially at 6 weeks.
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